After my house fire in 2004, the things that matter the most were my Christmas decorations. Everything went to ashes..but.. my very old Manger scence. Blessings!!!!
Then I began buying my decorations after the new year when things were dirt cheap.
When I started gathering things to move to my now new home.. I had too..too much. go figure. I picked through what I wish to pack and bring.
Today I unpack with a Holiday Spirit that I Will Feed!
It's beginning to look alot like Christmas... everywhere I go.... xo
The Holidays are knocking at the door. sigh...
My man and I look at each other and wonder... Now what?
Neither one of us has joined in, had ...holiday cheer for many cheers.. me not so long ago..him.. over 20 plus years!!!!!!!!!!!!.
But the joy I feel, welll... I want this to be a special time for the both of us.
He hasn't had a Thanksgiving meal at his house for years....nor a Christmas tree.
No one has visited him for over... many years!!
So, I am determine to ...light-up the holiday season.
We went out and shopped for a turkey dinner with all the trimmings.
I invited the neighbor to join us, he'd be alone if I didn't.
I have been looking for a Christmas tree amongst the hundred pines and cedar here on our land.
We have all shapes and sizes of Holly trees and plan on making a holly wreath.
Then I texted his brother and invited him and his wife down for a holiday cheer day.... from now till the New Year. Left it wide open for him. It has been way too many years since the brothers got together...like since childhood!
So, yup... this is going to be the bestest holiday ever ;-)
sigh.... My life is so full of love and wonders... lordy be... This coming new year is going to be... totally awesome.
In a one month period my love has transformed into a mighty mountain man.
He went from "thinking" for a living to working with his back.
Naturally! No problem. He enjoys his retirement.
He cuts wood every day and is now spitting logs. I sit and watch this grand man do his thing.
We are even in a mean game of Monoply... tonight should be interesting as I have Park Place and Boardwalk...with hotels on them. *smile*
Our love grows, we are truly blessed.
I have this poster hanging on my wall that tells how we all can survive, learn, give thanks.
Help me believe
in what I could be
and all that I am.
Show me the stairway
I have to climb;
Lord for my sake
teach me to take ...
One day at a time.
I am a very happy lady these days. I feel strong, in love, secure and big hopes for the future.
Not too long ago, I thought about killing myself... only one..sad reason stopped me.
I had adopted.. many homeless unloved furry children that would not have anyone to care for them. Knowing that someone would shut them down.
*smile* Today I look back at "those" days. Everything has changed.
I feel so alive. I am learning something every day. I am in love. I have a good man. I have a new home. I have great health. I have a new life!!!!
I have learned what my Lord has taught me.... the hard way...
Quite simple...Take ONE day at a time! Cause..ya know... Tomorrow is just around the corner and if we hold tight to our dreams, have hope for a new day... It will be so!
I woke up, staggered down the stairs, straight to where my coffee is sitting on the stove, ready to pour. My coffee cup, with sugar, milk in it and a spoon ready for the stirring. The wood stove is doing it's job, crackling fire and warmth through out the house. exhale....
This is how I wake every day.
My love leaves the house for his two to three hour walk through the woods each day. Before he does, he gets me ready for my day. I have never known such loving treatment.
This morning, as all mornings, I am smiling from my heart. I feel love, I know love, my love serves me ...over the top. It been a month since his retirement and he came home. Not once in this period has my mornings varied.
It almost time for him to return, I must get his breakfast ready and myself for the remaining day.
I went outside just now, as I had my smoke and I notice the dead silence. No sounds of crickets nor tree frogs. A soft, but cold breeze blew, but the trees stayed silent.
My soul responded to the silence of nature. So much so that I wished for a warm peaceful feeling.
It's the cycle of the seasons that control, affect me more than any thing in my life. Each season holds a ... mood, attitude in me. So here I am, after the..THE most awesome Autumn of my life!!! It's not quite over ... still have another 5-6 weeks till Winter but... tell Mother Nature that.
Now as Winter makes an early entrance, there is a stillness, sleepiness in the air.
Back to the warm peaceful feeling...*smile* It seems that this is the time of the year when we all start reflecting on days gone by. It's a time to slow down, our activities totally change, we look, desire that "warm" peaceful feelings...lol..
I can be a tease. I just got out of the shower, walking around butt-naked. I was wanting to be noticed by my man. He can be so... too much of a gentleman...lol..
I told him we were in the honeymoon stage. That he had to take-notice and grab me.
So now every single time I am getting dressed, out of the shower, just looking fine...
Here he comes, hands in a grab form, pulsing his fingers and yelling... BABY...BABY...OH BABY! Chasing me around, both of us giggling the whole time.
When I say around, it really is around and around our island in the kitchen.
It is beginning to be our love dance.... we get so dizzy, we fall to the ground and..... X
In 2007 I became a part of social networking, I began a blog. It was awesome!
I was at a place I could say things I would never say out loud. No one knew me and they couldn't touch me.
I was freed!
I began to grow.
I began to learn
I read other souls stories of pain, family, love and hate.
I was opening up , accepting myself as is. Because I saw all the different kind of souls from all over the world.
My world was growing bigger everyday.
I then began releasing secrets, woes and plans for the future on type...which lead to doing the same in my face to face reality.
I changed from writing, living out loud for any to see.
I have had some of the best days of my life sitting, talking here on social sites.
It serves the different side I have.
What you see and what you don't.
Yes, I am more opened to the world through the keys of my board.
But no matter how it comes out on type, it is from the heart.
I write with honesty, sometimes I am in a mood, not myself... my normal self *smile*
I can go back through the pages of my stories, and learn.
I still do, I need a place to release my moods, feelings, thoughts.
I do this writing, ...for me. It's self-therapy,
I am on our porch, wrapped up and listening for my man's sign that he has been successful for suppling us with good, clean meat to sit on our table.
He is out hunting today.
I heard his shot ring through the mountains....
He is on his way home now.
My man provides us with blessings.
Too excited to think straight... too much to do to prepare.... Dear God, the day has arrived when my love comes to settle in our home.
He will be early, happy dance... lordy be... I must get ready... my heart is beating out of my chest. He will be here 6 hours early... sigh... What do I do first? sigh... Need to shave my legs..lol... wow..
Thank you my Heavenly father for the blessing I am about to recieve.
I so love my man. exhale........... Later... I got very important things that must be done. *smile*
Write the sc
rehearse it in your mind,
then go out and
perform it to the best of your ability.
It was a very long tiresome road trip. I felt weary and down right wore-out, running on empty.
I begin my very slow trip down a one way dirt road back to my home in the woods.
All of a sudden I see something ahead. My headlight not quite upon the moving ob
Within minutes my eyes behold....
A tall slender, well built ... man in a robe... A second later he flashes me. lol...
I creeped closer to see better and yelled... more... more...!
I was delighted to see more!
Ain't LOVE grand!... So was later on..may I add. TMI... LOL...
I went to bed early last night only to wake up in the middle of the night..or,, early morning hours. ;-)
So here I sit, my first cup of coffee for the day. My mind is on the run and what better place to empty it then here.
This year has been overwhelming. So much new and different, full of changes. Changes of things that are from within and ..*smile* my new home, life style.
I spent the past week with my mother. I have not had the best of relationship with my parents/family. My folks are full of anger and negative stuff. Everyone seems to be so full of complaints, woes, sickness....blah blah blah! They all fight and argue, back stab and no one seems to be true blue.
I thank God I am not like them. They are so sad and miserable. And here I am the happiest I have ever been and.. no one wants to hear or share this special time with me. Oh well, so sad for them.
My mother pieced me apart this time like she always has. If it isn't one thing it is another. We always seem to go back to the past. 44 years back to when I was just a young teen. This time she told me if I had not been such a hard-headed girl, my life would of been different...lordy be! I was kicked out of my house at the age of 14 cause I was hard-headed.... Give me a break.
For the first time in my life, I replied with honesty..I told her.. no..If I had had good parents I would of had a different life. I made her..almost faint. ;-/ lol... sorry... I am no longer resentful, I have let it go. If only she could deal with her own guilt and disappointment... life could move forward for her.
My trip back to my home ended in a miracle, I traveled the mountains of West Virginia without trouble till the very second I came home. I lost all brakes and the car would not stop. That brought great insight into my life..right then and there. I am a blessed soul, someone up above loves me so!
The thought that my life could of ended this weekend.... is weighing heavy on my mind. I am happier than I have ever been in my 58 years on this Earth... and I am aware that ...Life can change in a bl
My man is coming home to stay and grow old with me. We are a good match, almost opposites but so alike in matters of the heart. This weekend will begin a new chapter of my life. The best is yet to come, I do believe!
There has been...IS an awakening of my soul that has been at hand these past years... I think the past few weeks has made me ... bright-eyes and brushy-tailed.... ready to take on this world with open arms and mind. I feel good, postive, loved.
Are you a true blue person?
Are you the same person, no matter who you are around?
Do your opinions, reactions, gestures vary per person?
This little lady here is one way.
I may change according to the event...setting...be calmer, quiet, or not use certain words ;-) but never when it comes to being around a certain kind of person.
I don't care if you are rich or poor.
Doesn't matter to me if you are thin or fat or pretty or ugly.
I don't care and will "try" not to argue over who is right or wrong in a spiritual matter or a living style.
I will not cramp your style.
Or make you uncomfortable.
I will not demand you to act...accordly to my likely.
If I do not accept your behavior... I will make my excuses and exit.
Dear God is there anyone out there in this world who is true blue?
Please tell me why one "kind" of person is better than another.
Why is it ok for you to be one way, believe, feel, act the way you wish and that doesn't not apply to anyone else?
I hope I know the truth of what is right or wrong.
No I do not wish to be around any one who is evil or mean.
That is all I ba
Are you a true blue soul?
In Ecclesiastes, there is a chapter that speaks of "A time for everything."
sigh... It is time for me to gather my energies.
I am running on empty. Been here and done that before. I have high expections for myself... and others... but I push beyond most. I have done my best and so much is coming about, together.
I am so full of sighs... tired, weary but on the other hand full of hope, joy and excitement.
This road trip to get my Mother is needed. I will enjoy having company. I look forward to relaxing, having a good time. This event is right on time.
The next two weeks my time will be used in enjoying the simple things in life.
Work, fixing, painting, cleaning, will all be put on hold. *smile*
I will do visitng with my friends after I get my Mother back to her home after a weeks time.
The follow week after all this fun...
My man comes home to stay. Right on time.
They say... No more than you can handle will be put on you.... sigh....
It is time for this little lady to exhale, relax, count my blessings and reflect on all that has rapidly changed.
I am blessed...Right on Time! wow...Thank you, God!
Only a little over two weeks my Sundays will begin to take on a different, brighter light.
But today, this Sunday, my heart aches so badly. Tears roll down my cheeks, my head pounds, my smile is turned upside down.
I watch as he drives away, going back to his house and my home is empty again. It doesn't even feel the same without him. I am drained within seconds of his departure.
sigh... oh my oh my... I will be over joyed when these Sundays come to an end. When no more lengthy good byes will enter my days.
Yes, I can!
At first, I had doubts, I worried if I had bit off more than I could chew.
But I didn't.
These new skills I have developed, on hands experience, learning to fix, redo, pretty-up and clean such a large project as our new home.
The energy that has came to me from my strong will and determination has surprised me.
I have found out just how well I can do.
Slow but sure,
Yes, it's no professional job done....
But A Job well done by Me!
This weekend we have our first guest to visit for the weekend. The next coming weekend, my Mother is coming to town for a week's visit.
I am about to do some magical work in my home...finishing the finish on the sheetrock, finish my painting, put down the ba
The side of the mountain that is in my face...*smile* and faces my home is a sandy side that washes out. I have 9 trees to plant, they are cork-screw willows that will get-a-hold of the ground and keep it in place... Plus the willows are magical, beautiful, crafty trees.
I claim, call this section of the mountain ... Willow Hill. I see in the future a bench, me sitting beneath the willows and looking upon the otherside of another mountain... and saying out loud to my God... Thank You!
Folks.. it doesn't get any better. *smile*
I have searched the world over... ;-) to find love. That is all I have ever needed or wanted.
I searched the four corners to find approval from others. Like it really mattered what others thought.
My life seemed to have no meaning unless shared by another.
I judged myself through the eyes of others.
I have been wrong allll my life.
The only true meaning in life and love ...starts with me.
How I love myself, how I approve and to stop judgment of myself...
Yes.... It depends on me and my relationship with my self that figures into a happy adjusted life.
I am growing, learning and nothing else really matters but the image I carry of who, and what I am, according to me!!!!
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