I have this fluttering in my gut, my heart is rapidly beating, sleep isn't coming easy, my eating is all off.
I check my to do list, I double check what is packed before taping boxes closed.
I feel my brain is two steps ahead of my feet.
I know how much my life is about to change.
The new experiences that lie ahead of me.
I feel so blessed!
The biggest change is going to be within.
I wish to be all I can be.
I want to get life right before I get too old to do anything about it.
This is the biggest event of my 58 years of life.
My dreams of a certain lifestyle is at hand.
I take a deep breath.... tell myself over and over again....
Don't Be Scared!
As soon as the well-digger left, the contractors that are doing a few things for us arrived. They get out of their trucks carrying a slower, happier style about them. They greet us with smiles and how are you today. As we small talked, one of the workers begin to tell us that he saw a black bear just down the driveway. He said about 300 pd one. Then are so many patches of wild blackberries, I am sure he came for breakfast. *smile*
One of the things they were there for today was to wait for the tressels to be delivered. We have a 30 by 30 garage getting a new roof, which will be my work shop to make my jewelry and.. a space to hang my craft flowers this coming spring and summer. I do believe I will have enough space to do all I wish to do in this nice garage.
After discussing business, settling a few decisions, we were off to fetch supplies to turn a decent size chicken coop into a cat coop. ;-) My love has accepted me and all my furry children as his... Please pray for him! lol...
We were half way down the ..one lane driveway when the tractor-trailer with the tressels came over the hill. OK.... only one thing to do, we drove back to the house in reverse. The trucker looked a tad worried, uptight as it was and us in his way... welll... we were all happy to get to the house. He jumps out of his truck, shaking his head ....I could tell he was glad he made it. Hey.. the blacktop road is one wild and crazy drive. You never know what's on the otherside of a hairpin curve.
The drive to a fairly good size town is only 13 miles away. But it takes at least 40 minutes to get there from home. Yup, a drive you best slow down, sit back, and enjoy the beauty all around BUT be alert. I love this place, all the surroundings, just too perfect, so surreal.
We get to town, pick a new cafe to eat at and off to the hardware store. We gather what we needed, nails, chicken wire, shovel, saw and such. *smile*
Our drive back, my love took the long way home. Dear me, this state is a never ending wonder. I still can't get over the freshness that is in the air. The waterways are sooo clear! The trees are all so tall. Everyone , ...almost everyone wears a smile on their faces. ....
All my life, I wanted to find a place I felt that I belonged. Well, I've finally arrived, I am home. *smile*
After a long night's travel, meetings first thing in the morning with others and little sleep.... When we returned home, car loaded, stomaches full, a drive through Heaven that would relax anyone ... we were ready for down time.... ;-) Us time, alone at home, .....
Pulls down shades....... Later!
Lordy, where do I begin to descibe my blessed weekend... I don't know if words can express the importance of all the events, and experiences that I, We, had this weekend alone. Every single time, since Our first meeting back in May of 2013, We experience new and different things. Our time together has always been over the top enjoyable, blessed beyond words. .... sigh..
Back to the home stretch, this weekend, was filled with amazing...Amazing sights and sounds which included the local mountain folks and critters!! .... I can not write this all today. Too much occur this blessed weekend, this will be Part 1.
I will begin at the top....
The end of our working day, Thursday, we were heading from opposite direction, to the same destination, toward our home. His drive is about 7 hrs and mine 8 hours. He gets to the cemetery and waits for me. It's the last place on the twisting blacktop road, before you enter our dirt mile long driveway, straight back into the woods. *smile*
Most folks would not dare come down this dirt mountain road. They have no idea where it leads. This is good!!! It's the way we wished it to be. Rough, slow driving, but private, our driveway!
First you come to an electric swinging gate, with tennis balls on the very end of the metal fr
This begins our way toward our beautiful moutain home that is waiting on our arrival.
Before you know it, the woods is all about you. It's like you have just entered another world. The sights and sounds.. and smells are all different. Breath taking is what it is! We continue towards the house, almost creeping through rough patches, not the whole driveway is this rough... well.. not if it's been a dry spell ;-)
You can see the creek below the road, all the trees and wild rhododendrons in bloom... just awesome! As we travel deeper into the woods, the silence is all around us. A peaceful easy feeling washes through me, I smile from ear to ear. I count my blessing ..right then and there. I am the luckiest lady alive!! While I am in awe, I see the sunshine at the end of the ... path of ours. There it is... Home!!!!
We had several purposes for this weekend, one was to meet up with the well-digger, to have a back up water supply. The one we have now is fed from the mountain spring, which springs flow underground all on our mountain. The well-digger came with his ..wand/stick and began his walk... he is for real.. the mountain folks will tell you this. His wand danced for a second and drew his hands down to ..the spot! We flagged it, got the permit and... soon, a new fresh water well will be in place.
Well, time to shake a leg and get a few things done.... BUT... I wish I had the time and brain power to tell you all about the 300 pound black bear and the mountain lion who misses his bed, our picnic table. *smile*
You do not want to go through the torture! You can't stomach it! You dance all around it, that you will get better...in time. Let your mind and body heal naturally... Yes, that's what you'll do.
Time passes by, you are still sick. Why, cause you wouldn't go through a belief moment, that would help you get healthy. You refused to take your medicine just because it tasted bad.
What happens when the mind and or spirit gets sick? Like the body, the mind and spirit, need some kind of TLC. You need something to help heal you. The mind and spirit, they really go hand in hand. One effects the other.. well.. huh...when any of the three, mind, body and spirit gets sick... YOU become very ill all over, through and through. It causes lack of growth, it can kill you if not tended, or healed.
Getting well physically, at times you must take your medicine. Or maybe alittle extended care with therapy. This also can apply to an illness of the mind or spirit.
Sigh....I have been fighting my insecurities, my demons, my fears of lately. Man... I've been busy!!! Multi-tasking... Packing to move and cleaning our my "cell". Both are hard work!
Anyways, I believe to grow, to heal and be healthy mentally and spirtually, the bad medicine you must take is to confront your insecurites, demons, fears. You must be brutally honest!!! Look at yourself, see yourself and then go after what is ailing you, causing your sickness. It isn't going to taste good at all, it can turn your stomach.
Honest self-awareness is the key to growth and healthiness.You may need to take your medicine, that can make you gag... *smile*... but only for a moment. Then before you know it, all better.
As I dig deep into my storage of days...years gone by, I am finding all kinds of things that are triggering emotions.
My house fire took everything from me. But just a handful of things survived. One book, a pen of grandma's, some blackened artifacts/arrowheads and one Tarot card.
While opening this one tin, I found my smoked colored arrowheads and the 10 of Pentacles on top.
Now if any of you know the meaning of the 10 of Pentacles, it showing up, the only survior of my deck... Finding it right after losing eveything you worked for ...well.. it was not very nice.
The (keywords) meaning of the 10 of Pentacles is ~ prosperity, joy, stability, expansion, favorable placment, alignment in life, things falling into place. WELLLL I'll tell you.. this did not apply to my situationthat time in my life .. at all. I placed the card in the tin with my arrowheads in 2004 and forgot it till two days ago.
When I discoveried it again, I cried with shaking tears at my memory of my loss and then went into a laughing tear jerking mode. If ever in my life could the meaning of the 10 of Pentacles would apply to me ...
It's the here and now. Never have I known any of the keywords, meaning of this card. I do now! Go figure. *smile*
Is . . . .
The art of being wise is the art of knowing what to overlook.
The story is told of a couple at their golden wedding anniversary celebration. Surrounded by her children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren, the wife was asked the sercet to a long and happy marriage. With a loving glance toward her husband, she answered; "On my wedding day, I decided to make a list of ten of my husband's faults which, for the sake of the marriage, I would overlook. I figured I could live with at least ten faults."
A guest asked her to identify some of the faults she had chosen to overlook. usband looked a bit troubled at the thought of having his foibles and flaws revealed to the assembled group. However, his wife sweetly replied , "To tell you the truth, dear, I never did get around to listing them. Instead, every time my husband did something that made me hopping mad, I would simply say to myself, Lucky for him that's one of the ten."
Even the most devoted friends and spouses will experience storms in their relationships from time to time. Some problems are worth addressing in order to solve them. Others are best left undiscussed. In time, issues of little importance tend to blow past without any need for a "blowup."
From ~ God's Little Devotional Book for women.
Set them in order.
Hard work is at hand.
Stay focused, if need be, put on blinders.
Look straight ahead.
Do not venture off path.
On your mark
Go.... and she is off...lol... more ways than one.
Time to get down to the nitty gritty!!
I bow my head in prayer, I ask the Heavens for their guidance. To strengthen me as I travel down this new, amazing, unknown path. I pray that I do not disappoint myself nor my love ones ... in any way. I pray for the knowledge to prosper.
We all write our own book of life. With every thought through out our lives. I have come to my lengthy *smile* last chapter of my life. Giggles... well, to tell you the truth, I bet this final stretch of my life, I could end up writing a book, instead of my ..so-called final chapter of my book of life.
I was thinking the other day about an older blog I wrote about my progess report, all true. I think I might edit it and add on... Anyways, never have I gave up on living amongst the wild wilderness/woods. Living off the land, living out loud. Not worrying over my neighbors, which meant... I did not want to see my neighbor. ;-) I wanted a small self-sufficient farm. One to serve me, feed me, supply me without paying anyone but me. My pay was the glory, pleasure of suppling myself through my own labor. To rely on my own... and yes, my soulmate. x
Well, it's all coming true, like my dreams I have carried all my life. The challenge is here, the dream is reality now. The mind trips are at hand too... lol.. may I add. WOW! What a trip this is going to be. I feel very blessed, I am thankful, I am honored that through this trying life I have been placed in... That it "will" have a happy ending. *smile*
Well, all my rewards, blessings came to me in abundance! A very special mate, partner, friend, playmate, ..more ways than going for hikes and bike rides ;-) ...All rolled up in a nice pretty box... My lovely new home, sitting amongst the trees, all forest critters, and the sounds of Mother Nature...my new neighbors that I welcome. *smile*
Time for the hard work, I am ready... unsure of myself abit ... I am not as young as I use to be. I know I must chill and take baby steps. Not to go at it like a gang-buster, not just because of my strength, but all newness needs time for processing. If I go to quickly at things, I cannot absorb it all. It will make me off balanced. Luckly, my soulmate is very accepting of me and my ...nature. ;-) I can be a bet hyper, and intense female. I try too hard, I want it perfect! ....
See.. more ways of changing then just locations, but the whole ball of wax, inside and outside. This is going to be awesome! For myself, I wish to record, take notes, to watch myself. As I type-out my changing moods, thoughts, activities.
We do not need TV but we will have our internet. I will need it this spring as my winter mission is to produce jewelry to sell. The net is a fine place to do so. I might just get back into my herbs. Herbs for culinary, medicinal, teas and aromatic uses..and just the ornamental ones too. So many possiblities, so exciting. SOOO much on my mind.
I can't think of one thing that I enjoy more than a good belly laugh.... wellll... maybe I can ;-)
But I'll stick to talking about laughter.
Have you ever noticed that if you are down and out, someone will try to make a funny.... and you force that smile, chuckle back...
That is being determined to be a sour-puss, not going with the flow.
If you allowed yourself that ..HA.. *smile* It works magic. It heals. It washes you. It changes attitudes. It makes you feel younger. It makes the world better.
Tears can be turned into laughter.
It is up to you. Do you want to laugh or cry?
It's true, you know... When you are smiling, the whole world smiles with you.
Live the here and now. It doesn't hurt to be mindless, free, a time-out for a good time filled with laughter. Enjoy yourself. Live, Love and Laugh!
When others are set in their ways, they're obstinate... but you are firm and resolved.
When your neighbor doesn't like your friend, she's prejudiced...but when you don't like her friend, you're a good judge of human nature.
When she tries to treat someone especially well, she's buttering up the person...but you do so, you're being thoughtful.
When she takes time to do things well, she's lazy...but when you do so, you're meticulous.
When she spends a lot, she's a spendthrift...but when you overdo, you're generous.
When she picks flaws in things, she's critical...but when you do, you are perceptive.
When she is mild-mannered, you call her weak...but when you are, you're gracious.
When she dresses well, she is extravagant...but when you do, you're tastefully in style.
When she says what she thinks, she's spiteful...but when you do, you're being honest.
When she takes great risks, she's foolhardy...but when you do, you're brave.
Faults are thick where love is thin!
A page out of "God's Little Devotional Book" for women
Coming back from West Virginia, the mountain state to a river valley is a trip more ways than one.
The difference range greatly.
The sights first of all is extreme. I am on winding roads from hundreds of miles. One curve runs into another going the opposite way. I dare not travel too fast on some of the winding roads, I'd flip my car. . . .. Then after hours of twisting, I am all of a sudden on straight as an arrow roads. The mountains, rolling hills disappear and ... I can see the next state, it's so flat. OMG... take me home country roads, to a place I belong, West Virginia, mountain momma...... sigh
I traveled today my familar gravel roads, I was engulf on both sides of me with cornfields. It depressed me. I missed, yearned for my woods, trees, waterways, feeling of belonging.
Then the smell of chemicals that coat the ground and crops.... where is my fresh air?
The folks vary too. Mountain souls carry a peace, kicked-back attitude. The country river rats are cocky, narrowed minded, uptight and shallow.
One more month and I walk into the woods and disappear into a haven. Living a life that I have prepared myself, through out my days already. Learning to grow food, herbs, chickens, even once raised rabbits for meat. I am a good shot, I can skin a deer and butch it. I know the woods, sounds and sights of what is going on. From what critter is in the area... I can use a chain saw, a log spitter, stack firewood, to banking down a wood burner for the night. I can potty in the woods with no problem too ;-)
I am ready to learn more as I experience the mountain life. The tests that Mother Nature can put us through is one experience I am sure, I will give my total attention too.
Well, my life in a short time will be as different as night and day! My future is bright and filled with peace.
A Lesson . . . .
In times of restrictions
I remember to acknowledge my needs.
Transforming them in a leading force
I recognize them.
I read my stones/Runes pretty much on a daily basis. I wish to share my great insight my stones told me today. Which... my Runes are magically, right-on ... Every time!
A page from my handbook, Zen Runes, by Maria Letizia Rentzulli
You are now facing the shadow we all have: the dark resisting side in ourselves, the side we often project onto others.
If looked at deeply, each misfortune, trouble and denial has its roots in our own resistance. To recognize it means to transform the resistance into an available energy, the shadow into a guide, and the darkness into an ally.
It is time to stop reacting or feeling yourself a victim and to use adversity as a reminder of the incredble personal reserve of energy you posses to continue your quest.
Daily message ~ Look for advice in anything unusual happening today.
I have ..lol... I can be an emotional handful.
Out of control
This last unsuccessful marriage left me with more extra ugly baggage.
On top of an ugly childhood. Ghosts of the past.
Cool... go figure
I got tough, hardened, independent, cocky and determined to do it My way.
Lordy be... no prepping... no excuses, no idea really what short-circuited.
But I do get wired.
Thank the Heavens, that the man I love with all my heart, loves me the same.
Plus we both have always been able to relate, talk honestly.
In all new relationships, there are always the tests, the moments of disagreement.
In everything new there is a period of adjustment.
As things unfold, the learning never stops.
Thank God I am slow but sure.
For my Love, his reactions to me being under pressure...
He is smart, level headed(thank God again someone is) a true friend and a great lover.
I AM SCARED TO DEATH.
Fear has surfaced.
Like fear of success, happiness.. it can disappear as quick as it appears.
I am a rabbit that runs down the hole...
Thinking my heart is going to get broken...
I can do a great job at sabotage myself!
My Love, as I said, is a smart, man.... Has worked with thousand of people, all around the world.
He has a good heart as well as his smarts.
Thank God... He is man enough, strong enough to handle Me!!!!
Gracefully, gently, gifted.
I can be head strong, stubborn, a brat, a baby, have one heck of a pity party.
All in One Day! Lordy be... shame on Me.
We have just returned from our weekend at our home...HOME.
Doing things, getting ready for the both of our big move.
An awesome home that ... We both are in love with.
We both are in love with the land.
The people, so far... far-out!
Mountain folks, different mind sets. Too cool.
The "Mountain" is talking!!!
Newbies have come to the mountain.
We went on a tour to a church.. huh.. built in 1837..?
The caretaker, new to the area also, asked where we were from.
We told, N.C, IN, we bought a home near by. Checking out the area today.
She smiles and says... oh.. you two are the ones. She was asked at the store if she was the new lady that just bought the house.
IF I can not heal is such beautiful mountains, the wilderness, the Land and allll the critters.
I will never be able too.
IT'S REAL... it's SURREAL.
The perfect man for me.
The perfect home
The perfect mountain.
The perfect surrounds.
The perfect dream coming true for me.
THAT scares me to death!
I have NEVER known such abundance of love, happiness, joy, pride of life.
OHHH... the big CAT.. while we were gone, the cat, who likes to sleep on the picnic table on the porch, ..the cat bit into a can of hornet spray. Left both fang marks.
I pray he didn't die from the posion. The can had to blow up in his/her mouth.
Maybe it's a good thing.. If it didn't kill it. It might have scared it enough and got ill enough not to return.
Lordy be.... I love my life, I must surrender totally, trust in it totally, believe, hold tight, be strong, be happy!!!!
And get ahold of myself' and breathe!
I think I had enough adventure for today... sigh.......... A perfect ending to a perfect weekend... Really.. that good too.
What can I say... I am a good soul, a good woman, ...just... I can have my moments of ..insanity...I am only human... you know.
10 years ago I lost "everything" to my house fire. In just a 10 yr. span ..lordy be.. how does one collect so much stuff? ;-) So, here I am sorting to get ready for my finally move... yup... No starting over again, this is my final chapter of my life.
I am going HOME! I have clicked my ruby-red heels and shouted out repeatly ... I want to go Home... Finally that day is approaching.. quickly.
Climber has noticed my relax attitude. Even under pressure, I am calm, sure of myself, having no doubts at all.
One more month and all.. yes.. ALL my dreams are coming true.
I have fought tooth and nail to remain hopefully for this day. It has paid off, postive thought, the Law of Attraction is in the makings!!!!!!!!!!! < see.. how serious i am *smile*
I am shutting down my business, my bags are packed and... I am leaving to go home. Oh Happy Days!!
I am totally overwhelmed by all these mental changes, different attitude, that is coming at me with my new life style change. *smile*
I am opening my mind to all the daily influences that come with living off the beaten path.
I have been researching lately all this new information, studying, learning things ... From gardening in a sandy soil, to water purification, to knowing about an outdoor wood furnace and even for next year's project... solor panels!
Climber picked up an old book about... Reading the Woods. Wonderful knowledge of folk wisdom that comes from watching, listening and knowing the creatures, plants, trees that are surrounding us. There is so much else to learn, but I got a feeling it's going to be a hands on experience, learning lesson.
It does take a special breed of folks to live as we are about to. Now don't get me wrong... The most coolest little town I have ever been to is only a short drive away. It doesn't matter the mileage, it's the "S" shaped roads that slow you down. *smile*
Sigh... Yup, you know...I told my mother how lucky and blessed I feel to know I am going to die a happy woman!! How many people can say that?
I left the mountain top yesterday afternoon, and in just a few more weeks, I will never leave it again!!!!!
My love and I will settled in our home and will live happily, laugh loudly and love endlessly on our mountaintop.
The drive to and from the mountains is exactly like riding a roller coaster. When I travel from my mountain home, I drive through the passages that take me rolling up, then down, curve to a hard left, darting to the right into a half circle. I love testing my skill behind the wheel ;-)
But, as I travel out of these wild and wonderful mountains of West Virginia, my face feels tears, my smile turned upside down, my energy seems to disappear... lack of fresh air. Before you know it I am heading down to flat, farmlands, kinda depressing for me.
This trip was a good one.. but they all are. We relaxed somewhat.. if you knew us, relaxing isn't part of how we roll. Both of us are full of energy and we carry adventitious spirits. So, not much time for sitting around.
This trip Climber wanted to see what I could do on a bike trail, it runs 70+ miles. NO..I did not attempt the whole trip. We started at the end of the trail, at the 52 mile marker. I have not been on a bike for years!!! Climber, rides one to and from work... for the past 25+ years...Plus he has been on many many miles of bike trails. Dear God I knew I was going to die this slow aching death... lol
But I live to tell you, I went 16 miles without working up a sweat nor did my legs hurt at all. Now for my butt bone.. *smile* that is a different story! lol...
We took a hike on our 120 acres, followed the old logging road, down to our creek. We saw the big cat tracks again, again it was following ... sneaking-up on a couple of deer. Hot on the heels of a younger, smaller deer, I'd say, the big cat got what he was trailing. The last time Climber was there, walking with his dog, he ran upon bear droppings. So, these are very good signs that neither one of us are to leave the house without a weapon by our side. This is going to be a very exciting, wild and wonderful life I am about to lead!!!! *smile* I am ready to take it on with strength, pride and wisdom... oh and much respect to the ways of living deep into the woods, on top of a mountain.
Well, it is getting time for me to come back to "this" reality and go to work. My anxious, alive spirit will daydream about my perfect future days that are at hand for me!
Edit.... Add-on... I forgot two awesome events that happened while we were at home...
First, when we were on our hike we started hearing a thunderhead coming in over the mountain. Then we heard the rain beginning to hit the leaves of the trees and before we knew it... A hard down-pour of cold rain came from the heavens. I, at first, enjoyed the refreshing feeling but..lol.. enough.. We were soaked to the bone, feet swimming in our shoes, my long hair stuck to my face and back... what a giggling experience it was for me. *smile*
The second event that I hold in my mind was.... The first night we were at home, Climber saw a huge spider, but it disappeared... I am scared to death of spiders! I am not even concerned with big cats nor bears but.. those critters with 8 legs... watch me scream and run for my life. The next evening I was gathering dirty clothes and things to put into the wash. Anyways.... I gathered all the dirty things together into a bunch and carried them down stairs. When I with sorting the clothes to wash, I felt something clinging to the top of my hand. OMG!!!!!! It was the monster spider, as big as the back of my hand... OMG!!! I screamed, I tried to fling it off and it held on...OMG!!!! I am in a state of panic now. It hit the floor and I was off screaming for Climber to kill the monster. I was shaking, still OMGing... and my hero came to my rescue.*smile*
I have been in high gear for .... awhile now.
First my spring clean jobs came to me in abundance. Plus I am a neat nut with too many cats inside. Trying to keep up with my own house and yard in a challenge in itself. So I get-up-and-go from the minute my feet hit the floor in the morning, till my body gives up and tells me to rest. And there are nights, sleep doesn't come easily.
Then my preparations have begun for my move to West Virginia to begin a new chapter of my life. The excitement itself is enough to wear-out me *smile*
I can not express how blessed we are to live in the midst of Mother Nature, on a mountain with all the critters that live in the woods, a 120 acres of woods! With the never-ending fresh spring water creek ..with trout, that runs through the property. The silence is deafening, the beauty is awesome, a peace runs through me when I am there. Like I have been there all my life. *smile* sigh... We were meant for this piece of God's land, our Heaven, to live out our remaining days together.
Every two weeks, if possible, I go to my new home and ...giggles.. wonder around in awe and do what I can in the short time I am there.
Of course Climber is always trying to distract me so... *smile*
Tomorrow we meet up and this trip, we play like children. ..Maybe a tad of taking care of business but.... sigh... we both need down time, some R&R and quiet moments.
I have a load and a half this trip. Things, food, stuff..that will come in handy for the next two months till everything is in place for this wild couple to settle in. We are juggling two worlds, our jobs, contractors, etc...personal affairs.
Well, I cleaned two homes and one church today. Came here to release thought, rest my back, and wait for a second wind to come over me. Coffee working now ;-) and tomorrow I have a clean first thing in the morning, then pack up the car to get-up-and-go!
What a wild ride life can be! Yee-Haw..................!
The media, here/social networking, churches all speak about how women and children are abused.
Never about the abuse that men endure.
I will grant that most abused men are not ... getting a bad beating but...
Their souls/spirits and mind are hammered on. Some break, become drunks and others become comfortably numb, walking zombies.
Their women are not caring, in most needed way. Never working together for the common cause. Never playing together or socializing. From ... simply not cooking, to cleaning and being self-absorbed. Living "off" the wages of their men. Normally..all the family are on their own to care for themselves. Plus the sexual rejection isn't ever discussed. If the men finally can't take it any more... most lose over half of what they worked for... without their spouse's help. The men are trapped!
If we..women could open our minds enough to understand that men.. they are simple creatures...lol.. They are on an earthly level... Sights, sounds, ... the 5 senses.. get their attention. WE.. we are emotional soul-needing creatures.
I remember reading the old book ..."Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus" I think modern women should review that book now. Times have changed but men haven't.. nor women.... maybe lost our places.. but still the make-up is there.
I want to express myself today without sounding dirty or slutty. I get the meaning of women my age turning into cougars. ;-) But there is more to this story of passion then just "getting-it-on."
It is about a burning passion, heart-felt desire, need.. a hunger! Not just a raging libido but a ... as Elvis sung it ... A hunk of burning love! ... And I'm all shook up *smile*
This awesome enduring love I have with my man is like nothing I have experienced. A true awakening is at hand, emotional, mentally, to all matters of the heart .. plus .... I can't get enough of him.
My mind seems to relate everything to a sexual content. lol..My oh my...
BUT it isn't for any one else but my loving man. I am NOT in heat ... I am IN love.
Through my entire life, I am going to be 58 this year.. so no young chick here... I have never been a touchy-feely person. But I have a need to always be in touch with my love. I have a need to be connected.... hmmm sigh.. See... my mind just imagined us making love... sigh...deep breath ..
All I know is that my love makes me feel like I have never felt before. ... Whole, complete, and fulfilled!
And with all my changes in life ... This feeling is most welcome! I feel so blessed, I am so happy *smile*
The past few days I have been having bad headaches, I never have them. It worried me, I knew my body was telling me ...Helloooo.... !!
I have carried high blood pressure for.. years! I have had two heart attacks due to my BP being so high.
I finally found two medicines that work perfect. I stopped checking every morning to see how I was.
Till the other day. Oh no... yes... I was carrying way too high of pressure for me or anyone. Yesterday.. it creeped to a number that.. I called the doctor. He got me within a hour of him opening. He gave me a total scan..lol.. an examination, down to blood work.
You know the first thing that ran through my mind? YOU, my love, my friend, my life... YOU, Climber1...I wanted to be well, and happy for YOU!
I want to live for many years with YOU!
So, my man.... I am going into a health-nut mode. You are 8 *smile* years older and in better shape then me... This is unacceptable! X
I never wanted to live for another. I never even considered another's feelings regarding me or my welfare.
Guess it's true, Love does heal all.
Previous PostsDon't Be Scared, posted July 25th, 2014
They'll be coming around the mountain when they come....., posted July 22nd, 2014
The Home Stretch, posted July 21st, 2014
Bad Medicine, posted July 15th, 2014
10 0f Pentacles, posted July 12th, 2014, 3 comments
A Secret To A Long And Happy Marriage, posted July 9th, 2014, 2 comments
Priority, posted July 7th, 2014
Count Down, posted July 6th, 2014, 2 comments
Laughter, posted July 2nd, 2014, 2 comments
Have you ever noticed . . ., posted July 1st, 2014, 4 comments
Night and Day, posted June 30th, 2014, 4 comments
Nauthiz, posted June 30th, 2014, 4 comments
Babble, posted June 29th, 2014, 4 comments
Throw-Away, Pack-It, Give-It-Away... Set-Aside for futher thought . . . ., posted June 23rd, 2014, 3 comments
Creating a Mission, posted June 18th, 2014, 2 comments
Mountain Fever, posted June 16th, 2014, 3 comments
Get-Up-and-Go!, posted June 11th, 2014, 4 comments
Form Of Abuse, posted June 8th, 2014
I Am Not In Heat, I Am In Love!, posted June 8th, 2014, 4 comments
I Owe It All To YOU!, posted June 7th, 2014, 2 comments
You've Come A Long Way Baby!, posted June 3rd, 2014, 3 comments
Town Clean Up Day, posted May 30th, 2014, 2 comments
TRUST, posted May 29th, 2014, 2 comments
Hidden Wounds, posted May 26th, 2014, 2 comments
Preparations, posted May 24th, 2014, 2 comments
"What have you to live for?", posted May 21st, 2014, 4 comments
Don't blink!, posted May 20th, 2014, 3 comments
Updating To Upgrading, posted May 1st, 2014, 4 comments
LifeGuard, posted April 14th, 2014, 5 comments
Tiny Bubbles, posted April 2nd, 2014, 5 comments
It's As Good As It Gets Folks!, posted March 23rd, 2014, 5 comments
It Takes Time, posted March 21st, 2014
Tomorrow, My Future, posted March 10th, 2014, 2 comments
Sights and Sounds Of Spring, posted March 9th, 2014, 2 comments
My Choice Of Drug, posted March 3rd, 2014
Rocking My Life Away, posted February 26th, 2014, 3 comments
I Have A Voice!, posted February 16th, 2014, 2 comments
A Forbidden and Unstoppable Love, posted February 13th, 2014, 4 comments
DISTORT, posted February 6th, 2014, 2 comments
Blogging From The Heart, posted February 5th, 2014, 2 comments
About-face, posted February 2nd, 2014
Adding To What I Am, posted February 1st, 2014, 2 comments
Life Is Taking A Toll, posted January 29th, 2014
Sex and Woes, posted January 25th, 2014
GRABBING AHOLD, posted January 22nd, 2014, 2 comments
Sandmen, posted January 20th, 2014, 2 comments
Mirror, Mirror On The Wall, posted January 19th, 2014, 2 comments
Talk To The Hand, posted January 18th, 2014
Climber1 and MorningBreeze, posted January 7th, 2014, 3 comments
For Real, What IF You Died Today?, posted January 6th, 2014
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